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Why is grief something I have to make myself do? I thought that grief was something you just did, not something you had to force yourself to do. Am I so used to suppresing my emotions that just to display grief I have to force myself? This is not how grief is supposed to go. When I am grieving I feel good. But then comes the time when I can no longer force myself to grieve I don’t know how. and it is then when I need help the most. and it is then when I don’t want to let people know. I have to tell myself that telling people will help because people care about me and they want to and can help. I don’t understand grief and it is harder now then ever to grieve. I found this quote and it is very true: It’s so curious: one can resist tears and ‘behave’ very well in the hardest hours of grief. But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed, or a letter slips from a drawer… and everything collapses.
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